urgh, so today i have to take pictures for my passport foto
lemme tell you it did not fare well
to those lucky few that have seen my current passport photo........
these will pale in comparism to that sponge hair.
BUT... I DO NOT WANT ANOTHER PHOTO THAT WILL HAUNT ME FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE
HAHAHA
anyway HERE ARE MY RESULTS AHAHHAHAHAHA
actually it looks ok here. but when its cropped up, IT LOOKS LIKE CRAP

PLS DO NOT MOCK ME
( anti-camwhore )

this is the life...
sleeping all day, lying on the bed, downloading while blog skipping..
urgh i do not want to get out of this bed!

my heart's with japan but its gonna be stolen by europe!
<3--------> LONDON---> PARIS--> BARCELONA
i think i memorized the map of paris today
MUAHAHHAHAHA..
CHAMP ELYSSES. LOUVRE,VERSAILLES, DISNEYLAND... PIERRE HERMES, BLAHBLAH BLAH..
BRING IT ON! I WILL SHOP AND WALK YOU DOWN!
YEAH
YEAH..
YEAAA
anyway
im starting to feel more pumped!

today i thought of being with my friends in melbourne,
those hangouts every friday night, attempting to squeeze 5 people in yen's small car,
having delirious sing-alongs in cell retreat,
sabos that went awry, stupid dress up parties.
all these things, made me realize that being in that little australian bubble is like being in neverland..
i guess we all have to leave neverland eventually and grow up in the real world..
aka singapore, the land of grumpy people.
but i guess its no use bashing my own country..
its hard, i can't fit in. yesterday i couldn't keep up with people, i couldnt even take out my ez link card to di di the thing before i exited!
and people glared at me cos i took so long to pay
and i got stressed in ion and vivo city cos there were too many faces there
;( I DONT WANNA BE AN ANDROID!

so yah, i dont know why, but im feeling depressed today.
the message of the book "brave new world" keeps hitting me every second
WE ARE DOOMED. ok nonsense. anyway im going off now! i have to go research on..stuff BUAIZ

and i am back,
for once, i had a tinge of unenthusiasm to go back to singapore
i was crying on the plane.. i am gonna miss shuk in and yen alot
they have taught me so much, and i have depended on them so much
next year, i have to stand on my own feet, and take up a role where im totally uncomfortable with
which is to lead and guide people. that means loving people unconditionally, aspiring to be a role model, being spiritually sound..EVERYDAY
it sounds really daunting to me, if you know me , you would know that i have had a really..wild...past
ha.
Anyway. i expect shuks and yen to invite me to their wedding!!!
I WILL BE THEREEEE...............( but of course i'll be in shuks' lah, since you know, we're practically family already)




i thought back of the day when i first went to ocf,
not when shermaine brought me, but when i was in trinity..
i said a quiet prayer that one day, i hope to be part of a christian family, a cell where i have amazing friends
and i chucked this prayer away, thinking it was juvenile and stupid.
its pretty amazing that God answers prayers in HIs own time
hmm i dont have time to make an emo post i have to go to church now! bye